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Underwhelming…

Yesterday was a preaching bomb.

Ever have everything prepared, really know your material, and still fail to deliver?

I wanted it over as soon as I got up… and I just pushed through it.

I love preaching, even though I question it’s role, I’m thrilled whenever I can engage hearts and minds with the Scriptures and the Spirit of God is working… but this was my most uncomfortable preaching moment by far.

I’m still processing through what happened.  I know I’ve been going through some spiritual unsteadiness.  There has been family-oriented strains and lots of mixed feelings lately.  I had not slept much and I woke up just feeling weak.

I was tasked with sharing about my own personal visions in life.  This is important stuff, for myself personally and our lives going forward of course.  But, I felt like I was talking more about me, than Jesus.  Something about that felt powerless.

I need to crawl somewhere and hide for awhile.

{ 3 comments… add one }

  • Marty Schmidt June 23, 2008, 4:48 pm

    Been there done that.

    Have you ever froze up in the middle of wedding you were officiating? Not much fun either.

  • Al June 23, 2008, 9:34 pm

    First of all: You are still loved. You are an awesome reflection of Christ, so don’t allow one bad moment threaten to change how you see yourself.
    Secondly: You are still a child of the King. Period.
    Thirdly: Maybe this will help you understand how God is changing your focus and style of ministry. You have been expressing how your training and experience in church ministry just doesn’t seem to fit anymore. Maybe God is encouraging you to find a better ‘fit’ by allowing you to be less than stellar in your preaching. Something like David wearing Saul’s armor–it just don’t fit anymore.

    Hang in there, friend. You will find your niche in the Kingdom.

  • Rich July 1, 2008, 8:46 am

    Underwhelming is a great way to describe it. Sometimes you get drained give out all the time and your focus shifts slightly to all the “noise” going on. I’m sure you were still good!

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